Change of Heart.

Winter always holds magical moments up until the end. Towards the end of winter, you just want it to be over. As winter disappears, the snow turns to slush and the once green, yet now brown grass starts to show through. The snow on the street turns to the yuck gray color and everyone starts to smile at the nasty appearance the earth is showing off.
Spring is on it's way. That means warmer weather, beautiful rain showers, and blossoming flowers. Though rain is often associated with gloom and sadness with dark skies, the spring showers are something I find quite wonderful. After the rain, the sun slowly peaks around the dark cloud and soon to follow a beautiful sight that brings happiness to many people. Spring always holds many days showing rainbows in the sky. Some are bright easy to be spotted rainbows and some are faint and barely peaking around the clouds. These are the smiles that seem to be saying, "Peek-a-boo, there is hope". They leave me replying, "I found you and my hope". Along with the change of season, I have had a change of heart.
It's the little things that keep me hanging on.

Faith Above All Else

As a christian, I have full faith that my future is in God's hands. However, It's hard for me to relax and not worry about my future. Since I was twelve years old, here I am wanting to be a nurse. I almost lost my life. After spending time in the hospital, I don't want to do that anymore. Nursing does not feel right for me. I have lost my interest. I lose my interest in everything. That's what scares me about the future. If I am constantly losing interest, how will I ever be completely happy? Put my faith in God. Trust in him. Pray. This is how I make it through my day. Through the stress and worry, I remember, even if I can't see the signs now they're going to come. He is in control of my life.
"I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"

The Unexpected

It seems as though no matter what I do I am never satisfied. It happens every day in almost every decision I make. If I choose an outfit that I assume is going to be perfect, before the end of the night it is not what I expected it to be. If I order dinner based on the picture, it is never what I expected it to be. If I date a guy that seems exciting, he really turns out to be a hassle. If I date what seems to be the perfect guy, it's boring. Is there never a happy medium in life? I'm starting to wonder. I always see the "perfect couple" that always seems to be happy, smiling, taking in every minute of their life together. Honestly, It makes me jealous. After so many memories together, suddenly she is unhappy. Did anyone see that coming? Again, it's not what we expected. There is much more to life than what meets the eye. It is true, nothing is ever what it seems. Does that make it exciting? Or only leaving everyone feeling let down? Either way, there is never a dull moment. If there is one thing I have learned in this life, it's to expect the unexpected.